Project Weight Loss

Ok, so here goes. My plan. My current weight is 74.3 kg and I'm 167cm tall (to those none metrics out there thats 164lbs and 5 foot 6.) That gives me a BMI of 26.6 which is classed as overweight. I've set myself a few different goal weights (all about 3kg apart) to get me to a much healthier weight and a weight i myself am much more comfortable with. Part of the point of starting this blog was to help me lose weight this summer, lose weight safely...and although my tendancies for disordered eating haven't got any worse they haven't exactly got better either and I haven't lost any weight. 

What frustrates me the most about this is it's not that I've never lost a substanial amount of weight before. I lost about 12kg last year and am happy that I've managed to keep that weight off. But I still don't feel it's enough. My ultimate goal last year was 60kg. And it frustrates me that a year later I'm still so far away from that. 

So here we go again...

Goal weight 1: 73kg BMI: 26.2

Goal Weight 2: 69kg BMI: 24.7 (Puts me into normal weight range)

Goal Weight 3: 66kg BMI:23.7

Goal Weight 4: 63kg BMI:22.6

Goal Weight 5: 60kg BMI:21.5

Goal Weight 6: 57kg  BMI:20.4

And I've come to the decision that the only way I'm actually going to be able to do this is by bribing myself :P Yes I am a four year old apparently...so that's the tact I'm going for. 

GW1: To be honest this is like a kg away, so I can't be too treaty. Some new shampoo (used an amazing smelling one at the BF's this morning) so I'll 'treat' myself to some Herbal Essences. 

GW2: The American Apparel zip up hoodie I've been eyeing 

GW3: Pandora Bead(s)

GW4: A manicure 

GW5: The ear piercing I've been hankering after

GW6: Some new jeans

So yeah. I'm such a little child. But I'll try and keep you guys updated. Wish me luck!

Crap...

Everything was going great. I did all the stuff I had to get done today and cooked a big batch of chilli for everyone. I've had my eating under control lately and feeling great about it. I ate a healthy sized portion of chilli but now am fighting not to purge. I can't stop thinking how much better I'll feel to have all of that food out of me. But I know it'll only be the start of a slippery slope that I shouldn't go down again. I can't. I need to go do something to take my mind off it. But I'm not sure if I can do that. 

Home Sweet Rainy Home

So I'm back :D Complete with a tan, about a zillion new freckles on my face and two mozzie bites. It wouldn't be a holiday without them really though would it? And in true English style I came home to rain - which made the short shorts I'd come home in (you can really really tell I was in the holiday mood and had tanned legs for the once) even more inappropriate in the Supermarket. Especially around the freezers. 

I daren't get on the scale straight away, but am taking a week of healthy and light eating before I do. And tonight I'm the one making dinner - veggie chilli. Yum.

We're all off to Leeds tomorrow to visit my brother and watch the Ashes - if the game even lasts until Monday and Tuesday, the days we've got tickets for. But it'll be great to see my big brother, it seems like its been forever and ever - even though I saw him about a month ago. 

I'm just checking in :D I can't stay long, there's dinner to be making.