Thursday, 31 December 2009

New Year, New Look: Weight Loss

So once again I'm jumping on the old bandwagon of losing weight and at the time of year EVERYBODY does this.
I'm currently clocking in at 77kg and 167 cm (thats 169lbs and 5 foot 6) with a nice overweight BMI of 27.4.
By the beginning of June I hope to be 60kg (133lbs - ish) (and I damn well hope still) 167 cm with a much nicer happier BMI of 21.3.
I've signed up to my usual internet calorie intake monitory thing and the wise one has told me to achieve this goal of mine I need to restrict my calorific intake to 1600 a day. I find recording my eating habits really helpful so i ordered a big moleskine diary this year (I'm so excited about its arrival, come on amazon!) and plan on designating a part of each day's page to recording my eating habits.
Weigh day will be Monday mornings, and I'll be sure to tell you guys how I'm getting on. As well as how I'm feeling and I'll go back to recording my food intake for the day.
Wish me luck! I'll likely need it. I know my weight loss ambitions have been unachieved on this blog but I do have a history of actually managing this, as I've mentioned before on here. This time two years ago I was knocking on the door of 90kg. Sometimes when I feel huge now I cannot imagine how massive I must of felt back then. I'm very proud of the fact that I've managed to not only lose that weight but also keep it off for so long and think now is about time for a second burst. Will power time!
So good luck to anyone else embarking on a similar journey to me, I know we can all do this!

P.S. Happy New Year! Hope everyone has a great time!

Wednesday, 30 December 2009

New Year, New Look: The Blog

This is my philosophy for 2010 and I've started here early. Think of it as a shiny new hair cut for my blog, the beginning of a few changes I want to make this year. Like a head start on a New Year's Resolution. So enjoy all the pretty new colours, I'm hoping it'll get me posting to you guys more regularly. I am so easily lured in by a good pattern and some pastel colours...

I'm Back! A quick me update.

After a Christmas spent eating far too much food (I daren't get on the scales) and doing far too little work I'm back starting the New Year in a ridiculously buoyant mood.
I've got a job lined up for after my exams (just have to get them out of the way first!) which is brilliant news, the circumstances of which mean I'll still get my summer; I'm so excited about the thought of actually having somewhere to go with something to do everyday. Offers at universities have meant I'm most definitely heading somewhere this September to do what I want to do and all are within at the most 3 hours of my family and A, which I know is the complete opposite of what some people want, but I'm a home comforts girl at heart!

And to top off the smileyness of this post...I'm wearing a reindeer jumper.

Friday, 11 December 2009

My Step By Step Manicure


This is what I do to keep my nails looking nice. It's by no means professional but it works for me. I have put the particular products I use in brackets at the end of each step, I'm in no way affliliated with any of these companies, I just like their products and am passing on my own recommendations. (And I'm sorry for that rubbish picture, I haven't got great lighting this evening.)
Enjoy!

1. Remove any traces of old varnish from your nails using a nail varnish remover and cotton pads. (Cutex 'Ultra Cleansing')
2. File your nails to desired length and shape, going in one direction only to prevent splitting. (Excuse my stunted ring finger nail, it had a run in with a door early in the week) I have filed mine reasonably short in an attempt to match them up a bit.
3. Buff with a three/four sided buffer thing. (Ms. Manicure Smooth, Buff and Polish File)
4. Apply a cuticle oil to base of nail (China Glaze Orange Cuticle Oil) and push back cuticles gently with an orange stick/cuticle pusher. Remove any excess oil by washing hands or swiping over nails again with nail varnish remover.
5. Apply a thin, even layer of a base coat (I'm using China Glaze First and Last, but I would recommend Nail's Inc.'s base coats - mine has just run out)
6. Apply 2-3 coats (thin coats!) of your chosen nail colour (as its Christmas I'm going with China Glaze's Ruby Pumps) allowing 10 minutes drying time between each coat. Excuse my rubbish aim, there's more paint around my nails than there is on! I've never been good at this bit. Any varnish on your skin can be washed off when nails are dry.
7. Apply a top coat (China Glaze First and Last again...and again, not a big fan) and leave to dry well.
8. When top coat is completely dry apply a cuticle butter (Burt's Bees Lemon Butter Cuticle Cream) and a hand cream (Garnier Hydralock - great in winter so is L'Occutaine Shea Butter Hand Cream, amazing for cold dehydrated hands)
Et Voila! Pretty Hands!

On the Top of my Christmas Wishlist

Just because I'm on a massive posting spree today...
Gavin and Stacey: The Complete Series
Glee Soundtrack: Volume One
Lola by Marc Jacobs
Topshop Fluffy Robe
(I'd prefer in the slate colour, but that's no longer on the website)
Accessorize Bright Fair Isle Slipper Boots
Topshop Rose Long Leg PJs
(once again, not the exact ones on the list, but Topshop has moved loads of stuff off its site)

How Freakin' Gorgeous are These Babies?


I fear I love them more than is healthy for a girl to love a pair of shoes...

Project Weight Loss: Update

I've hit 73 kg! 73.8 if we're being picky but still, there's a 73 there! I've set myself a short term goal of being 71.3 by Christmas; thats exactly two weeks to drop 2.5 kg (thats about 5.5lbs, so a little under 3 lbs a week.) This would put me at my lowest weight in recent times. Prior to that my lowest was dead on 73kg. Wish me luck guys.
Most posts to come today, off to a nearby Sally's in search of the unfindable Emerald Sparkle by China Glaze. The beautiful Ruby Pumps is currently gracing my not so lovely toes.
Be back soon!

Monday, 30 November 2009

Project Weight Loss: Part Deux

Ok, so the FitDay account is set up. It's official, I'm doing this again. My weight as of today is 76.2kg, I'm 5 foot 6 and so my BMI is 27.11 - 25 is considered the top end of healthy. My aim is 59kg (random I know) by April 24th (random I know) this would put my BMI at a much healthier 21. That's just under a kilo a week (about 0.8 if anyone's interested.) I realise that Christmas is slap bang in the middle of this, and that (especially in my house) equals endless amounts of food. But I'm hoping I'll be able to pick up the slack in the new year. So, if anyone wants to do this with me that'd be great or if anyone can recommend an effective diet for vegetarians (I also don't eat egg, but will eat fish) that'd really be a massive help. Fingers crossed for me and my will power!

Friday, 27 November 2009

I love Christmas TV: It begins...

I know we're still a month (less than now!) but the Christmas TV has begun to trickle through onto British TV, or at least new series have started as winter sets in. And I couldn't love it more.
The Gavin and Stacey Christmas special from last year kicked it off, they showed it a few days ago and lured me in, it was all in preparation for the start of the new (and last :( ) series which showed it's first episode last night. And GOOD lord was it amazing!
You know when an episode finishes and you feel cheated and want more, that half hour episode just wasn't enough. I had that biiiiig time last night. Which shows me how amazing this show is. So for any Americans out there who've never seen it, youtube it, or try iPlayer (not sure how avaliable this is outside the UK) for the new series. See what all the fuss is about!
And then my obsession with Stephen Fry (it's not well hidden AT all) was satisfied by a new QI straight after G&S. And not only was it Mr Stevie, but Rob Brydon AND David Mitchell too!
So give the TV that got me excited this week a go and I'll be back next week (when Delia's been on, which I'm far too thrilled about, I love a good cooking show, she's no Nigella but she'll do,) if after watching those you don't fully agree that Ruth Jones, James Corden and Rob Brydon are comedic geniuses then I've got some convincing to do...

(Ooo! And for any radio fans, give this weeks Sorry I Haven't A Clue a go, it makes Monday evenings for me. Pure genius, plus it satisfies the old lady hidden in me.)

Monday, 5 October 2009

Oh dear god...what is wrong with me?

I just cried at the X factor...a new low. Damn Dannii drawing out the yes for Stacey Solomon. It was the final straw. It was weep city over here. I was massively over pleased for her. She just seemed so lovely and like she really wanted it, for herself and her little boy. 
And I think I have a girl crush on Cheryl Cole. She's just so wee and pocket sized. Apart from the weird 'hiding stuff in my hair' hair thing she had going on...
But why send those twins through?! Oh Louis. Louis, Louis, Louis. What are you thinking?
Now I've got that out of my system...back to the work I was supposed to be doing before ITV Player sucked me in. And I hear season 6 of House is an essential watch that will make me cry. I do massively love Hugh Laurie. I just have to do some work first. But I'll be back soon! 

Thursday, 24 September 2009

CD stack of the moment...

A very Leeds inspired stack this week, my heart's definitely there and not here with me :( 

Frank Turner - Poetry of the Deed
Noah and the Whale - The First Days of Spring
Florence + the Machine - Lungs

Monday, 21 September 2009

Sorry guys...I haven't been hiding honest

Its an absolute miracle that I remembered my username and password on the first shot...that never happens.
A lot has happened since my last post - it really does not feel like it was that long ago. I got my exam results on the 20th and unfortunately didn't quite get what i needed for the uni i wanted. Honestly I was gutted at first, but then sense came to me. My second choice wasn't really what I wanted - in reality I'll be happier in the long term not going somewhere I don't want to be and stay at home for an extra year. 
A few resits to try and improve my results happen in January and the application process for uni has started again. 
I'm on the job hunt but am back to my old job at dance with some extra hours included.
The BF has moved away to uni, I miss him so much but am trying my best not to interfere too much for the first few weeks - I want him to make the most of it, make friends and enjoy freshers week without me moping around on the other end of the phone all the time. I'm going up to see him in a couple of weeks for the weekend. I'm counting down the days already. 
My lack of posting has mainly been down to a month of making the most of my friends before they went. I went to Leeds Festival and had SUCH an amazing time. Snuck my brother home for my Mum's birthday. Waved off my friends and the BF. Enjoyed a series of pub quizzes with the group of my friends sticking around (for various reasons - working, resits, financial stuff.) Reorganised my room. Started back at college one morning a week and organised a self teaching schedule for the rest of the time. And held 3 surprise birthday parties. 
Ooo! And wrote myself a birthday list. 
So long story short...I'll have more time for you guys now. Blogging ahoy! 

Tuesday, 18 August 2009

Project Weight Loss

Ok, so here goes. My plan. My current weight is 74.3 kg and I'm 167cm tall (to those none metrics out there thats 164lbs and 5 foot 6.) That gives me a BMI of 26.6 which is classed as overweight. I've set myself a few different goal weights (all about 3kg apart) to get me to a much healthier weight and a weight i myself am much more comfortable with. Part of the point of starting this blog was to help me lose weight this summer, lose weight safely...and although my tendancies for disordered eating haven't got any worse they haven't exactly got better either and I haven't lost any weight. 
What frustrates me the most about this is it's not that I've never lost a substanial amount of weight before. I lost about 12kg last year and am happy that I've managed to keep that weight off. But I still don't feel it's enough. My ultimate goal last year was 60kg. And it frustrates me that a year later I'm still so far away from that. 
So here we go again...
Goal weight 1: 73kg BMI: 26.2
Goal Weight 2: 69kg BMI: 24.7 (Puts me into normal weight range)
Goal Weight 3: 66kg BMI:23.7
Goal Weight 4: 63kg BMI:22.6
Goal Weight 5: 60kg BMI:21.5
Goal Weight 6: 57kg  BMI:20.4

And I've come to the decision that the only way I'm actually going to be able to do this is by bribing myself :P Yes I am a four year old apparently...so that's the tact I'm going for. 
GW1: To be honest this is like a kg away, so I can't be too treaty. Some new shampoo (used an amazing smelling one at the BF's this morning) so I'll 'treat' myself to some Herbal Essences. 
GW2: The American Apparel zip up hoodie I've been eyeing 
GW3: Pandora Bead(s)
GW4: A manicure 
GW5: The ear piercing I've been hankering after
GW6: Some new jeans

So yeah. I'm such a little child. But I'll try and keep you guys updated. Wish me luck!

Saturday, 8 August 2009

Crap...

Everything was going great. I did all the stuff I had to get done today and cooked a big batch of chilli for everyone. I've had my eating under control lately and feeling great about it. I ate a healthy sized portion of chilli but now am fighting not to purge. I can't stop thinking how much better I'll feel to have all of that food out of me. But I know it'll only be the start of a slippery slope that I shouldn't go down again. I can't. I need to go do something to take my mind off it. But I'm not sure if I can do that. 

Home Sweet Rainy Home

So I'm back :D Complete with a tan, about a zillion new freckles on my face and two mozzie bites. It wouldn't be a holiday without them really though would it? And in true English style I came home to rain - which made the short shorts I'd come home in (you can really really tell I was in the holiday mood and had tanned legs for the once) even more inappropriate in the Supermarket. Especially around the freezers. 
I daren't get on the scale straight away, but am taking a week of healthy and light eating before I do. And tonight I'm the one making dinner - veggie chilli. Yum.
We're all off to Leeds tomorrow to visit my brother and watch the Ashes - if the game even lasts until Monday and Tuesday, the days we've got tickets for. But it'll be great to see my big brother, it seems like its been forever and ever - even though I saw him about a month ago. 
I'm just checking in :D I can't stay long, there's dinner to be making. 

Saturday, 18 July 2009

Here comes the sun...do de do de...

So it's summertime up here in the Northern hemisphere and I thought I should talk to you about an issue which I know many already have stressed the importance of, but I wanted to add more. 
I'm a bit of a stickler about sun protection but love the feeling of being tan. I realise it's awful for my skin (no matter how many precautions I take) but summer time for me means being outside; not even laying out but just being out there enjoying sunshine I miss and so rarely get to enjoy over here in England. It's inevitable therefore, simply by being outside that I do develop some kind of tan no matter how much high factor suncream I slap on. I'm fairly pale naturally (Dad's got the skin of a stereotypical Celt) but I tan reasonably easily (Mum's got Southern European ancestory and therefore an olive southern European complexion.) The combination of skin tones leaves me and my siblings with pale skin but olive undertones and lots of dark freckles - I'm not talking freckle tone freckles here, chocolate brown freckles - and skin that tans to the same degree as Mum's. I consider myself fairly lucky in this respect - it has partly owed to the fact that I've never sunburnt. But I also take extremely good care of my skin in the sun all year round. I think this is the crucial part. 
I have friends who are far, far fairer than me and some are as vigilant with taking care of themselves in the sun as they need to be (high factor suncream, loose long sleeves, hats, staying indoors in high sun hours) unfortunately others take far less precautions than they should and I genuinely fear for how they will pay for it later in life. They burn because it's the only way their skin will turn to tan, wearing factors of suncream as low as SPF 8 for lying out all day with only one application. When I slather myself in factor 20 (low in my books) for just a half hour outside they think it's ridiculous. Upon hearing I wear sunscreen on my face everyday one thought it was stupid. And pointed out on a holiday that she'd gotten far darker than our friends because they were 'using factor 30, so how did they expect to tan?' I was shocked. The idea of sun safety didn't seem to occur to here. Being burnt and peeling was just a part of the process. 
My parents have always battered sun safety into me - my Mum would lie out in the sun in holiday for a month wearing only baby oil in her younger days and wanted to make sure none of us took such risks. We never had anything below factor 30 in the house for years and on holiday I remember being dragged out of the pool at hourly intervals to 'be regreased.' We wore hats with neck flaps and pool T-Shirts and were made to nap under an umbrella for a while after lunch to keep us out of the sun when it was at its most dangerous. This need to be careful in the sun still lies prominent in my mind. And though I will end this summer with a tan I will have done it taking as many precautions as I possibly can. 
Six bottles of suncream (the lowest being factor 30, the highest 50+) are joining us on holiday this summer. I've got myself quite a beautiful collection of coverups and am going to spend tomorrow hunting for a hat that will be somewhat more adult but equally as effective as my baseball cap with a flap number. 
So please, this summer don't be stupid in the sun. Take care of your skin and it'll be just as beautiful in 40 years as it is now. 

Sunday, 12 July 2009

Technamological Stuff vs. Me

So my Pop came back from visiting my brother today and he's an utter Blackberry obsessive. He recently converted me to the wonderful land of Blackberryness and he got me a present he thought I might like...but I liked it far more than he thought I would. Like, seriously way more. It's happened. I'm officially a Blackberry nerd - Jeez, that crept up on me. 
Anyway, the present was what I (still showing my technology related ignorance) would call a holster, but I believe those in the know call it a charging cradle or pod. So now my little Purpleberry is stood up, charging away on my bed side table. I got home from dance (my last official Saturday before Uni, I'll be back there for a week in September though - so there were no big goodbyes) and there it was, sat there on my table all plugged in and ready to go. And the smile that went across my face. It was just so nice and thoughtful!
But yeah...the Purpleberry is pretty much where the whole me and technology alliance ends. I know enough about computers (both PCs and Macs because my school was a big old PC fan and I am a macbook girl through and through (my Mum had one of the original plunky MacIntoshes when they still had that awesome stripey apple logo - she was quite the pioneer) I digress...) to get me through what I need to do. But Facebook is a massive no no for me. I just don't get it. Nor do I MSN or iChat anymore. I spent far too much time doing that when I was about 14 and can't be doing with it anymore. I much prefer to while away hours actually talking to the person. I e-mail but I'd much prefer to write a letter or call. And I have a type writer, which was for a while the only place I could write. Unfortunately the ink ribbon has dried up and I'm having trouble finding a new one. There's something wonderfully satisfying about the callouses that writing on a typewriter gives that my good old macbook cannot provide. I own and use a digital camera, but yearn for the days I could afford to replenish my stocks of Polaroid film. Those book reader computer things just make me want to vomit. Part of reading a book is the experience. The feel of the pages. That new book smell. The way that a book looks when it has been well loved and read; all creased covers and the occasional folded corner. 
It would appear I'm a reluctant lover of technology. I'll take it in moderation and only within my own terms. Until I find something I love and makes me smile - then I obsess and give it its own name. I'm officially one of those people who names inanimate objects. But I do really love my dear Purpleberry. 

Tuesday, 7 July 2009

My 5 books to read before you die...

So I read, from time to time. And here in my utter boredom I have compiled a list of five books I believe everyone should read (I'm not big on classics, I love the idea of them I just find them incredibly hard work to read, I do however love listening to them on audio books. I'm the same with Agatha Christies - which are brilliant by the way. Give them a try, start with Poirot though he's a bit more peppy than Miss Marple.) So here we go...in no particular order.

The Well and the Mine by Gin Phillips - I think the fact that it took me a day to read this says it all. It's a truly harrowing story about a little girl who witnesses a woman throwing her baby down a well; set in the Deep South in 1931 it also chronicles a small mining town's struggle against the depression and its descriptive passages are so intense you feel that you yourself have lived it. 
The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood - I read this simply because my friends had to for English Lit and I wanted to see what all the fuss was about. This is a book with difficult and terrifying concepts that I found almost unbelievably easy to read. Set in a (hopefully) alternate future where the majority of women are sterile and thus Handmaids are supplied to the rich to bear the children of 'Commanders' which are then raised by the Commanders' wives. The book chronicles one handmaiden's journey through this suffocating new life as she looks back on her old one. I will say though I hate the ending - it doesn't appeal at all to the part of me that likes things ended nicely tied up in a bow. 
Moab is my Washpot by Stephen Fry - Good Lord I cannot tell you how much I love this man. In my bizarre fantasy celebrity family he is everyones favourite uncle. This is his autobiography chronicling a section of his life - starting with his childhood and teenage years and ending upon his entry into Cambridge University. This is a book in which Mr Fry often meanders away from the main story often and throws in a number of wonderful anecdotes. Definitely worth the read whether you're a Mr Stevie fan or not. 
A Gathering Light by Jennifer Donnelly (Published out of the UK as 'A Northern Light') - This is a book which has really effected me and made me think - every one of the 8 times I've read it. It centres around the discovery of a series of letters which reveal vital information on a murder (based on the real murder of Grace Brown early in the 20th Century) by the narrator - a girl working in the hotel the victim and her murderer were staying in. Mattie, the narrator draws a number of deeply unsettling parallels between her own life and that of Grace Brown. This is marketed as a children's book and although I must have read this for the first time when I was about 13 this is by no means just a children's book. The descriptions of objects, thoughts, smells, feelings, landscapes, movement, memories and people make you feel like not only are you a part of the book but have been part of that community forever. I can honestly say this is amongst my favourite books ever. 
The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger - I read this for the first time on the same holiday I read A Gathering Light - Jeez that was an amazing holiday for literature. I fell in love with this book and it along with A Gathering Light has come with me (and been read!) on every holiday ever since. This is my second copy of this book - my original was so loved it had to be replaced. This follows the life of a man who due to a genetic disorder travels through time, specifically to important events of his lifetime. Entangled within this complicated existence is that of the girl he visits at different stages of her life while at varying stages of his own life. I won't say more...I don't want to spoil this simply exquisite book for you. I cannot tell you how thrilled I was to discover they were turning this into a movie. And it's kept me waiting, having been in production for about two years for no apparent reason. But the trailer is finally out! Yaaay! And I couldn't have suggested more perfect people to play Henry and Clare. I have something of a major girl crush on Rachel McAdams and Eric Bana is an Aussie so instantly gains brownie points. It doesn't hurt that he's so beautiful. I will spend this entire film (maybe only first viewing) just in awe of the two of them. And it comes out just after I come home from holiday...the perfect way to beat the post holiday blues. I'm getting a sneaky reread in before the 14th August. I'm off now to the land of Clare and Henry. 

A perfect way to spend a perfect summer.


Sunday, 5 July 2009

Skin Care

So as far as beauty regimes go I'm pretty obsessive about having a good, effective skin care regime in place. Bad (and I mean bad) acne runs in my family and so my Mum instilled the
whole looking after your skin thing in me from a young age. 
This seems (now I've got it all gathered on my desk) to involve a never ending array of products, but it's not as complicated as it seems honest! This is my routine for summer when my skin is marginally more oily than in winter. I consider myself to have combination skin this time of year whereas winter dries it out no end. I get eczema patches on my face at random intervals throughout the year no matter what I do and so I try to avoid perfumes in face products as I find these cause my eczema to flare up. This system works for me and my rather irritable skin and whether its this or just jumping the genetic bullet, I've managed to get away with just the occasional spot. 
So here goes...step by step. 
1. Make Up Removal
Some would say I over cleanse with all this, but I think making sure your face is as squeaky clean as it possibly can be one of the most important parts of skincare. Clearing all of your pores of make up and pollution accumulated
 through the day is bound to stop your skin breaking out. 

Garnier Clean Sensitive 2 in 1 Waterproof Make-Up Dissolver - £4.88
This stuff is brilliant if a little greasy (which is part of the reason I use wipes before cleansing) and I think this is at least my fourth bottle. It's oil based so forms two layers with the oil and water, shaking to mix makes this stuff literally a make up dissolver - it gets rid of (even if a few swipes are required) even my most stubborn waterproof mascara. It's non-perfumed and alcohol free - always a bonus for my skin. 

Any old face wipes - at the moment I'm using these Skin Therapy Deep Cleansing Facial Wipes because they were on offer at the supermarket (Sainsbury's if anyone's interested 2 for 1 I do believe) and it turns out they're bloody good. These get rid of all foundation and other face make up and made little work of the red lipstick I had on today. Literally one swipe. Ever since watching Petrilude's skin care video on You Tube I've become a real advocate of double cleansing. It makes perfect sense - the first cleanse clears all the make up and the second really cleanses. These wipes are my first cleanse. I also find they get rid of the slightly greasy residue left by my eye make up remover. 
2. Cleansing
This is where I do my second cleanse to really deep clean my skin making it feel fresh. 

Lush's Baby Face - £3.87
My current favourite cleanser, this stuff is a solid, buttery bar that is preservative free and only lightly perfumed (and vegan!) I use it slightly differently to the method Lush recommend - I rub the bar all over my face which causes a layer of the bar to melt over my face leaving a slightly greasy (and shiny, which is great for me as I can see where I've already cleansed) coat of the cleanser on my face. I remove the cleanser using toner on a cotton wool pad. This cleanser leaves my face feeling wonderfully squeaky clean but moisturised at the same time (its full of lovely moisture rich plant butters) meaning you aren't left with that tight feeling in your skin. 
Another favourite of mine (when my bank account is in better shape) is this: 
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Burt's Bees Orange Essence Facial Cleanser - £10.99
This stuff is worth trying merely for its smell -  a wonderful orange scent that wakes you up in the morning but isn't too citrusy that it can't be used at night as well. Leaves my face feeling clean, smooth and deeply moisturised without feeling greasy. 
3. Toner 
I use toner to remove the Baby Face Cleanser but also if using my exfoliating cleanser I use this afterwards to ensure my pores are thoroughly clean. 

Garnier Clean and Fresh Invigorating Toner - £2.08
This stuff is great, I got it because I couldn't afford my usual holy grail toner and have been pleasantly surprised. It's cooling and refreshing and really does its job. And at only £2 it's certainly worth a go.  

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Burt's Bees Rosewater and Glycerin Toner - £13.99
This is my absolute holy grail toner. It calms the redness in my face leaving my skin fresh and light and wonderfully airy. Loved this particularly when used with the Orange Essence Cleanser. 
4. Moisturiser
I have three moisturisers on the go at the moment. One for night, one for mornings and one for extra special days because I'm trying to make my bottle last as long as possible before I get to replace it in duty free. 

Nivea Creme - £1.04 
My Nan had always used this and at 90 has the skin of a 60 year old. It's tried and test and above all wonderfully cheap. I'd only ever use this as a night cream because it is so thick and leaves the skin a little greasy after initial application. By the morning however this has been completely absorbed and leaves the skin soft and plump. 

Garnier Ambre Solaire Face Protect SPF 15 - £10.95
I use this as my morning moisturiser because I like the protection the SPF gives and find that the Nivea Creme has left my skin moisturised enough from the night before. And this stuff is moisturising and gives my skin a nice sheen that doesn't look greasy at all. This is often on 2 for 1 in Boots so I stock up. 

Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturising Lotion - £25.45 
Everyone has raved about this and if I had the money this would be my moisturiser day and night. I'm waiting for holiday time to replenish my supply (as you can see I'm nearing the very dregs of this bottle) but consider this a worthy investment. I've had this bottle since Christmas and consider the length of time this one bottle has lasted me (using everyday for 6 months) to make it well worth the £25 price tag. It's wonderful stuff - even though this is meant to be for dry skin I find it does wonderful work on both my patches of dry and oily skin. I'd be nervous about trying the gel - I'm not sure how my dry skin would react to it. 
5. Exfoliation

Garnier Pure Deep Clean Foam Wash - £3.91 
This is one of the few products I use which I feel dries out my skin and thus I only use it once a week or if I feel my skin is about to, or has broken out. This really does deep clean and requires some really moisturising afterward but deals brilliantly with any tantrums my skin is having. 

St Ives Radiance Cleanser Apricot Cream Wash - £3.98
I often find exfoliators with beads too harsh to use as often as I need to, but these beads are suspended within a really rich moisturising cleanser which means deep but gentle cleansing and exfoliation. I use this every other day in the shower (whenever I wash my hair) and find this is often enough to clear my skin although I would have no worries about using this everyday. It's even gentle enough to use to get rid of any skin build up on the lips. 
6. Lips
I've become something of a lip balm obsessive in recent years and feel lost without some form of moisturising lip treatment with me. I've been looking for that perfect treatment to use morning and night and I can definitely say that if I had to pick one product to use on both my lips and skin it would be this:

Lucas' Papaw Ointment - £3.65
This is a wonderful multipurpose ointment better known Down Under than in the UK as well as being a brilliant balm for lips is perfect for almost anything - I personally find this a great alternative for hydrocortisone cream as an eczema treatment. It provides initial relief from itching and then treats long term - this makes it great for things like bites too. I prefer this to creams to treat callouses and areas of dry skin on elbows because the ointment is more instantly moisture rich. 

Just a lonely little m&m man...



I love this photo of the little m&m man surveying his grounds...

Wednesday, 1 July 2009

Melting...meeeeeeelting...

Good god its hot. And I'm not just talking normal hot for you guys not in the UK I'm talking UK heat wave hot where it's so damn humid it feels a little bit like you're breathing through a sponge. It didn't help that I went shopping today and had to endure a two hour train journey each way...it was sweaty, there was walking - lots of it and my train home was delayed so I ended up stuck on the platform with 100 other hot and disgruntled commuters for 20 odd minutes before the train showed up. But yeah...shopping! Bargains were purchased from Zara and Urban Outfitters and a much less bargainous pair of jeans from Gap (thanks Mum :D) 
I may well go a bit post happy now, I've got so much to say for some reason and its waaaaay to hot to sleep right now...so here goes! 

Sunday, 28 June 2009

Ta Dah!

I just had an idiot e-mail address log in name forgetting catastrophe - which I'd love to be able to blame for my lack of posts. Really it's just utter laziness. Hey at least I'm honest. 
I feel I should make up for the rant that I ranted in spectacular style all too recently (that was nearly two weeks ago?! Holy crap...) 
Eczema is slowly but surely clearing up, well as much as it is going to. Still got a patch on the top of one of my feet that drives me and those around me mad whenever I scratch. And the rather embarrassing (and painful) patch right on the top of my bum crack - not one to scratch subtley in public I can tell you. 
People have been seen in a calm, relaxed, laughter filled atmosphere. I've stayed out later than the hermit like 11 I restricted myself to on one day a weekend during the hellish study period. We've talked about things other than exams. Huzzah! 
Sex is back. 
I've written stuff. Well...more planning than writing, but still.
I've vegged in front of the tv.
I read a book! (The one that was the most chick-lit like on my books to read pile)
I've slept for hours and hours (it seems like all I want to do at the moment to be honest.) The more I sleep the more I want to sleep. 
My confidence isn't at its peak, my eating habits aren't back on track at all BUT I haven't purged since my last blog. 
Thus far there has been no sun lounging...we've had stupidly humid weather recently, but no sun. Just sweaty wheeziness - nice. 
Potentially sorting out a holiday for me and the bf for a week over the summer :D I'm excited, I just hope we can sort it. My mum's being a bit of a twat about it all...not sure why. She thinks we've left it to late but has reminded me everyday this week to sort it soon. And yet today she went off on one about it. Ugh. You can't win. I'm so tired and it's family BBQ time tomorrow, so I best rest up. Then there's another argument with my mother to document tomorrow. And a new weight. 
And most interestingly a new mystery piece of furniture in my room. 

Wednesday, 17 June 2009

Let's start with the bad...

So I had a bad day eating wise. I skipped meals all morning then b&p :( 
But I had a great day with my exam. I was on such a high when I finished even though I was a conclusion away from being completely done. My boyfriend finished today and he seemed so happy and carefree. I guess it rubbed off on me. We're meant to be going on a picnic tomorrow after my last exam but its been pissing it down all day so I wonder if that'll actually all go to plan. Then I've got work. Everyone's been hinting about going into town in the evening; I know the BF and my best friend are going and so I'm feeling a bit crap. It's not even that I want to go. I don't drink (personal control freak related choice - plus I only like the taste of JD which beyond a couple of drinks is beyond my budget), which is fine at parties and stuff but I hate the idea of following everyone around clubs as they get progressively more pissed. And I don't dance unchoreographed in public. I just don't...its the law. But its prom on Friday, then my Pop's birthday meal Saturday then on to another birthday party. Then I dunno...a Father's day related Sunday. So a fun weekend lies ahead! 
Just the most hideous exam in all of the world tomorrow (there was not one person I poke to today who felt even half way ready for it) but I'm hoping I've made up enough ground with my other modules that I can do terribly on this and still get the B I need. 
Just had a hot chocolate with marshmallows and it's lying all cosy in my belly. 

Recovery from the rant that was last night...

I'm proud of myself for not purging and feel infinately better after getting all my moans out of my system. I realise it's not just me being put under this stress at the moment, but still that doesn't stop me feeling crap. Woke up on the perky side of the bed this morning and am bizarrely looking forward to this afternoon's bio exam. Although I'm still not as prepared as I want to be and am dreading opening the question paper to find an essay title I know nothing about, this is one of the biggies. 2 and a 1/4 hours of biological wonder. When this one is out of the way I've just got the mountain that is a 3 hour chem paper and I'm free to enjoy the summer and do all the things I said I wanted to do in my post last night.
Plus I'm wearing fairly awesome shoes and am channeling the 50's today which always makes me feel happy. I've thrown a semi-beehive in for good measure. Excuse my not so beautiful feet...and once again my more than shoddy camera work. 

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

Shit...

I just binged for the first time in about two weeks. I want desperately to get it out of me...but I'm all out of lax and my parents are home so I can't purge. I know that's good, its preventing me doing something bad to myself but I hate the feeling of having the food in me. Knowing its there, making me feel huge and so much like a failure. 
I just had a truly awful tutoring session, my last one before the exam and I can honestly say it hasn't helped me at all. It's made me feel a million times worse if anything. Exam is on Thursday, its my last one and in the subject that's always been the one most likely to let my grades slip and deny me the Uni place I really want. Other exam's tomorrow afternoon and I know I'll spend the morning double checking everything for that so will have little time in the evening to cram last bits in. I might have to do a coffee fueled all nighter and risk looking like absolute hell for the ball on Friday. 
I can't stand this for much longer...I know I don't have to, but I'd give anything for this all to be over right now. I've never felt true pressure like this before and it's only exacerbating other problems. Here's a rambling list as long as my elbow (I'm sorry):
I'm covered in eczema. 
My confidence has plummeted. 
I'm being harder on myself than I have in months. 
I'm not eating properly and I can tell another bulimic period is on its way. 
I miss seeing people in a calm atmosphere where exams aren't the first thing on everyone's mind. 
I miss sex...the relaxed, we've got all day alone in the house to enjoy each other kind, as opposed to the swapping my lunch break for a quick fuck variety. Then having to rush out of bed and back to work before the parents come home. Not that the quick fuck variety isn't still a lot of fun. 
I want to sit down and write again. A big fat romantic saga. Or a complicated family drama full of plot twists. Or a murder mystery with a little quirky detective or two.
I miss vegging in front of the TV for an hour or two without crippling guilt spreading through me. 
I desperately want to read a book that isn't about science. 
I want to sit in the garden in the sun wearing very little, working on getting rid of my tan lines without a revision guide and stack of post its. 
I want to be able to finish a meal at the table without having to rush off to learn some more crap. 
I want to watch a film, all the way through in one sitting. 
Above all I want to sleep. For hours and hours, without feeling terrible when I wake up because it's eaten into my revision time for the day or without a lecture from my mother about not letting time slip away because I'll regret it later. 
Ugh...I hate exams. 

Naps and Siblings

Just woke up from a nap (an accidental nap, I'm permanently tired these days and the text book I was reading was anything but enthralling) and it's suddenly about 7 million degrees. It wasn't when I went to sleep, so I was all snuggled up under my doona. Regretting that now. 

Latest obsession (once again jumping on the bandwagon after everyone else had already jumped on and off it) is Brothers and Sisters. Discovered basically the whole third series on my satellite box earlier and started watching (while revising mother...don't worry, although probably not the best working situation) and got through about 4 episodes. I watched the first season then kind of forgot about it, but now I've got a while new addiction brewing. Right in time to counsel me through ER being all done and dusted. Me and Mum cried the whole way through; although I think Mum's tears at the end were more for the lack of Gorgeous George than anything else. He's been replaced in her affections now though by that Mentalist chap who seems to have stolen the hearts of middle aged women country wide :P (based on a short survey of my friend's mothers.)

2 days to go! Then I can indulge my Brothers and Sisters habit all I want. 

The kids next door are playing recorders (badly might I add) in the garden. Downside of summer and open windows...but I've got a pink summery pedi going on on my toes. Whenever I look at my feet I smile. 

Today's Stats + Breakfast 16/06/09

Breakfast
Bowl of bran flakes (+semi skim milk)
Strawberries
500ml water
Jubbly

Weight: 75.2 kg

And i forgot to post last nights dinner:
Small vegemite sandwich
Cheese, tomato and cucumber sandwich
Popcorn
Strawberries
Cup of tea (+skim milk + honey)

Monday, 15 June 2009

CD stack of the moment...

So, my stereo (which still has a tape deck I must add...I'm not letting that thing go, I've invested far too much money in Harry Potter cassettes to get rid of that thing) has a three CD playing swap over t and I pretty much fill all three up every so often and then listen to those three albums on repeat until I stop being so lazy and switcharoo. 
So here's my current stack...excuse the shoddy camera work, I'm going to blame my camera and not myself. 
1. Band of Horses - Cease to Begin
This album landed in my hands after much promotion by the boyfriend and so it always makes me think of him, which makes me smile. Odd, considering this is not exactly the most happy go lucky collection of songs out there. 
This is perfect playing quietly as background music, or turned up loud to fill a room. Over the last few days it's been doing a great job of coaxing me into doing the work I should have been doing for months for my final exams. This time next week I'll be completely freeeeeee! 
2. Phantom Planet- The Guest
Yeah...the OC people. This is an album my brother was recommended, he brought it and being the biggest music snob in the world listened to the first track (the now ever so slightly annoying Califoooooooornia) and it got put in his rejected pile. He went off to uni and I discovered this gem amongst a bizarre collection of CDs that got left behind. I gave it a new home and I love the occasional, guilty listen. As long as my brother's not home to hear it of course. 
3. Missy Higgins - On a Clear Night
I'm unashamedly obsessed with Missy Higgins. She's got the most amazing voice and her lyrics are beautiful. And I'm a sucker for a bit of good piano playing. I live in hope that soon she'll realise that touring the UK would be the best idea she's ever had. Her songs are getting used on a number of the big names in US TV these days, but her LP's are certain worth a listen. 
Every summer I seem to end up with an album that truly defines the time I spent that year wallowing about doing as little as possible but having maximum fun all at the same time. This was most definitely last summer's album. I'm still waiting for this year's to show up (it is only June, cut me some slack) so this is filling the void for now. 

There's an awesome thunderstorm going on outside as we speak. I love the way this happens in Britain in the summer. After weeks of humidity, hay fever and general asthmatic wheezing there's this massive storm. Rain that soaks you after you've been out there for mere seconds and thunder and lightening. Then it clears and you can breathe properly again and the world seems so fresh. 

Lunch 15/06/09

Spiced quorn pieces
Wholegrain rice (+the tiny dribble of soy sauce that was left in the bottle)
Peas
Banana
500ml Water

There may also have been a magnum consumed at some point...

Breakfast 15/06/09

Vegemite toast (x2)
Small glass orange juice
Cup of tea (+semi skim + honey)
500ml water

Sunday, 14 June 2009

Today's Food - 14/06/09

Breakfast
Bowl of Bran Flakes
Semi-Skim milk
Raspberries
Small glass apple juice
Cup of tea

Lunch
Banana sandwich (+butter)
Glass of Milo

Dinner
Pitta bread + cream cheese + cucumber
Apple
Grapes
Really really light Ribena (like drinking piss I tell ye, wish I hadn't accidentally got a massive stock of this stuff by mistake)

Water
750 ml

Stats as of 14/06/09

Height: 167.6cm
Weight: 76.36kg
Current BMI: 27.1
GW1: 72kg
GW2: 68kg
GW3: 64kg
GW4: 60kg 

I was supposed to post a picture with my stats...but I'm in my jarmies in bed, no one wants to see that. So I'll save it for tomorrow...

The All Important First

So I pretty much wanted to start this blog to aide the weight loss wagon I've decided that I really must jump on now...bit late to start slimming down for European bikini season I know, but at least I can get myself looking marginally better in my swimmers than I do now. But then I figured I could make this interesting and tell the world (waiting for this with baited breath I'm sure) about my life - hence the ever so slightly cheesy title. I apologise for that now. I'm pretty sure within the month I'll be sick of it too. 
I lost about 13 kilos last summer and intended to shift at least another 13 before I stopped the weight disappearing...unfortunately I've be yoyoing between 73 and 76 for the last few months, which hasn't been great for encouragement it has to be said. But I've got my determined face on now and figure this technology themed dear diary type affair will help. 
The weight shifting last year was helped by writing down everything I ate in the day which generally stopped me pigging out - I hated the shame of facing up to a days binge. I also didn't do it very healthily last year...I noticed some ED type tendancies showing through; I fasted for long periods and took laxatives (first of all to shift the consequences of little fibre and then when i realised it could mean I lost a good 2kilos per session, they were being taken in an attempt to shift more weight - I know, I know it was only water, but there was still the thrill of watching the number on the scale drop.) I have had bulimic periods in the all too recent past. I am creeping on the edge of a pretty dark place and don't particularly want to go  there. If what I'm doing is more public I've immediately taken away the secrecy that so often surrounds an ED and hopefully won't slip back into my old and (what I recognise as) unhealthy ways. 
This has all gotten far too deep for a first post.