The All Important First

So I pretty much wanted to start this blog to aide the weight loss wagon I've decided that I really must jump on now...bit late to start slimming down for European bikini season I know, but at least I can get myself looking marginally better in my swimmers than I do now. But then I figured I could make this interesting and tell the world (waiting for this with baited breath I'm sure) about my life - hence the ever so slightly cheesy title. I apologise for that now. I'm pretty sure within the month I'll be sick of it too. 

I lost about 13 kilos last summer and intended to shift at least another 13 before I stopped the weight disappearing...unfortunately I've be yoyoing between 73 and 76 for the last few months, which hasn't been great for encouragement it has to be said. But I've got my determined face on now and figure this technology themed dear diary type affair will help. 

The weight shifting last year was helped by writing down everything I ate in the day which generally stopped me pigging out - I hated the shame of facing up to a days binge. I also didn't do it very healthily last year...I noticed some ED type tendancies showing through; I fasted for long periods and took laxatives (first of all to shift the consequences of little fibre and then when i realised it could mean I lost a good 2kilos per session, they were being taken in an attempt to shift more weight - I know, I know it was only water, but there was still the thrill of watching the number on the scale drop.) I have had bulimic periods in the all too recent past. I am creeping on the edge of a pretty dark place and don't particularly want to go  there. If what I'm doing is more public I've immediately taken away the secrecy that so often surrounds an ED and hopefully won't slip back into my old and (what I recognise as) unhealthy ways. 

This has all gotten far too deep for a first post.